Q.

2009-05-06T20:16:00.005+08:00

I am proud of us. and the silver we attained.

Am angsty, because it isn't fair to judge our music and neither is it the other way round. It is subjective. Perhaps it was our lack of experience to sing as only a level and the strength to sustain throughout the 15 minutes but it was probably not within our age and physique to do it to the best it can be. We're not of professional standards, but we have definitely done our best. Maybe not in all rehearsals, but we have learnt- and grown.

Never mind tho, because those who will understand, understands. Those who don't will just stay ignorant to what music is and what music does.

Yet take the criticisms in readily and take whatever lessons learnt this time round. It was a heart warming experience. The whole process. I think the most that everyone got from this was to never forget the music and joy that dwells wherever and whenever we sing.

It's a life lesson.

Cantemus, quia cantare bonum est,
Cantemus, quia cantare iucundum est,
Cantemus, quia cantare amantis est.

Just sing, because song is a very good thing,
Just sing, because song is a very happy thing,
Just sing, because song is in your heart.

2009-05-01T20:40:00.004+08:00

It's as though I'm talking to her, and that she's reading this space. nevermind.

Ms Tham, I need you to know that I haven't been the sole one affecting the choir and I alone cannot do it. But yes I know everything else to be said on the reverse side.

-

There is no point. I just need her to know that just because I'm keeping mum about choir problems and saving them for myself, I don't have to be strong enough to handle. I am glad and immensely happy for all that she talked to me about and for the simple touch on my back that lasted for seconds, even though it seemed like I stepped into infinity, that it stopped me from thinking- too much. She could have been my comfort but she doesn't necessarily understand how I was feeling. I won't have her just liking me just because I'm me. I hope she understands and forgive me for my weakness not because she forgets, but because she knows I'll be better.

I was just rethinking about what she said. I don't like being misunderstood. But I guess I can only put it into actions and show her. Afterall that's my principle of apology: actions.

I guess last night was a success for us. It marks a wonderful beginning for us, for me. I feel like I can hold the world in my hands again. It wasn't SYF, but in this process I've learnt to forget, and remember what it means to sing. It means much more to me. For someone who have never looked upon singing as competition, I've morphed into someone I don't recognise at all. I've taken up singing as a burden- to motivate and help everyone else, till I forget that I have myself to pull along, too. It's been going on since last year and finally this snowballing has taken effect.

I am thankful for this roller-coasting experience, or I'd never have the chance to grow. Now I know how it feels to be stripped of music and joy, and when it comes back, it floods me incessantly. I am thankful for IP that puts me under the same choir, similar environment, and show me that I've taken my position too strongly. Responsibility is mine and it stops there where I've done my best for everyone else. It's high time I do my best for myself and for the music I am about to make, and ms tham. My conductor. The best Mother to RVChoristers.

+do not talk to me about this. I am weary. I will not talk about this until my momentum fully stablises.

2009-04-17T19:42:00.003+08:00

I believe I have much to apologise for.

To whoever who thought that I was talking about, I'm sorry for being insensitive to your feelings. Tho fact is I wasn't pin pointing at anyone, but just generally speaking about my irks that happen to be of significance this very year. Still, should have been a little more knowing and aware about people's feelings so. yes sorry. Really.

I'm thankful for 2 very important people in my life and I wish that they'll be with me for life.

and I'll start being nicer whenever I can to one of the two becos I've been very mean to him.

also, I'll remember to practise empathy whenever I'm being critical becos my head doesn't sync very well with my feelings when I'm pissed off/irritated.

smack me if I don't.

2009-04-03T20:32:00.003+08:00

It's hard to stay in top form. Just need to rant, need people to know. I'm very scared for our choir's syf. Expectations that don't come from others just impacts more. It's not like we're going to sing to compete, but having the passion to sing gives you the urge to sing well, and when you don't.. yknow. everything just stops short.

I dno. Everything in my head's going in circles and I can't think straight, hence this superbly incoherent entry. (supposed to be doing PI). Need some silent comforts, need to rethink my thoughts. becos serz, I'm getting quite sick of this. Having to remind others while making every attempt to keep mindful of techniques(which is so fundamental- not musicality, there isn't much joy in every song I sing), trying not to oversing, wdv wdv. Know that it's responsibility and the section (if not choir) has to move as one, but what more can I do when I'm already so frustrated on my own. I don't want to implode just weeks before the big day everyone's harping about. Going to step back into the shadows and let things fall into place. I hope to get my faith back, and that if I believe enough, everything will be alright.

It's just me. I'm a mess. But I'm trying to get back into shape. I want to humble myself: I'm not the strength of a section. Nobody can ever be. (self reminder)

Chorale.

2008-12-21T12:25:00.002+08:00

I....... decided to post here out of desperation and anxiety because...

I'm darn worried for our first syf as a senior high choir.

It seems like. yknow. hahah sigh. The lack of practices bothers me a lot.

I'm just going to sing thru the songs in my head because I do not want to disturb my family/I'm not ready for my dad's criticism sorry I don't ban1 men2 nong4 fu3 thanks loser yes whatever, and the next thing I'm going to do will be to build up on physical stamina so I'll be ready for the coming practices.

are you ready are YALL ready?

2008-11-06T19:10:00.002+08:00

I am sick of people I was once pretty close with, choosing to treat me invisible as we walk past each other becos of so-and-so reasons. I say it quite openly and I hope you'll read this, so, stop it. Your girlfriend isn't everything you live for.

And thanks it's not cos of my height. ha-ha.

2008-08-08T21:06:00.002+08:00

It's not like I'm in a very good position to say anything, but still-

unfinished business seems like everyone's favourite excuse/reason to point fingers at one another. how so?

you didn't finish your work and you passed it down to me so that I can complete it. your work isn't very well done, neither did you appear to have put your best forward, that's why I can blame you and you can't tell me what I did wrong.

I don't actually know what happened and I'm actually quite out dated on what happened- I don't even know what's with the tension going on. but here's a statement from me. we hope we are able to pass the baton on no matter what condition it already is in. our mistakes are not an alibi for yall to hold against us, but for yall to take notice of and pay more attn to them.

some people just nag more than others but seniors being seniors are only worried that things are not taken care of, since we see better what isn't up to standards when we look at things from a 3rd pov.

you might not even think we deserve your respect becos we didn't earn it, but recognise our efforts? even tho we might not have been the best role models you can learn from. not the best becos no one is perfect. we point out your mistakes becos we see them and we hope to correct them, not to put yall down. it's done out of concern, if not vexation.

if seniors annoy yall too much, please listen and bear with us. at the very least, we have done our best for the choir. we hope you guys will too.

2008-07-01T20:18:00.002+08:00

I'm going to bathe.

1)do you have a wide group of friends ?
kinda. depends what you call friends tho.

2)if you're in trouble , will your friends 'fly' to help you ?
sure.

3)will you sacrifice your most precious thing for your friends ?
yeah.

4)do you believe in BFF ?
OMG BFFZZZ HAHAHAH. yeah :}

5)do you think a straight and a woman can just be platonic friends ?
duh.

6)do you have a male friend whom you can trust with almost evrything ?
yezzzzz.

7)do you think friends should tell each other evrything ?
if they wna.

8)if your friends are in trouble , wht will you do ?
help if it's within my limits of comfort zone. HAHAH. if it's my bffzxzxzx i'll feed her with 1001 solns

9)in future , if your friends get married and ask you to be their best man , will you agree ?
obv.

10)wht if your enemy calls you one day to make peace?
so peace it is.

11)wht will you do to a friend whom you trust deeply, betrayed you?
be stunned.

12)if your friend snatches your gf away , will you hate him or her completely ?
depends.

13)wht if there is a girl that has liked your friend for quite some time, tells you that she needs your help to win the heart of your friend, will you help her?
depends.

14)do your parents think your friends are a bad influence ?
one. HAHAH.

15)wht will you tell your parents if they asked you to transfer school, which means losing all your closest friends?
rej offer.

16)if your friend organizes a once in a life time party, but your family doesn’t allow you to go , will you sulk/throw a temper/sneak out/don’t go?
persuade?

17)how will you describe your friendship relationship with your friends?
laughing shizz.

18)define friendship .
everything we deserve to have.

19)name 20 people whom you can think right now . don’t read the questions until you named the 20 people . at the end , choose 5 people to do this .
1. bong.
2. peng.
3. laoluo.
4. zhiying.
5. hongzy.
6. guokai.
7. elijah.
8. laiseng.
9. zhongjie.
10. joseph.
11. teresa.
12. jeremy.
13. yunrou.
14. samuel.
15. adeline.
16. dianfeng.
17. jiayi.
18. liying.
19. zhenkai.
20. ms tham <3 LOLOLLLL.

how did you meet no. 4?
zhiying. choir.

wht will you do if you never meet no. 1?
bong. i'll not go shopping.

wht if no. 9 & no. 20 dated?
zhongjie& mstham. CO AND SYC CONDUCTOR :O

will no. 6 & no. 17 date?
guokai& jiayi. HAHA NO JIAYI LIKES CUTER GUYS.

describe no. 3.
laoluo. gh3y, gh3y, and gh3y. (multicoloured bra is da classiczz)

describe no. 7.
elijah. he tries very hard to curb horniness. very cute. has an unique taste in.. girls.

do you knw any of no.12’s family?
jeremy. i know his mom.

wht will you do if no.18 confess to you that he likes you?
liying. hahahah i'll gladly turn bi.

wht language does no.15 speak ?
adeline. the adeline act cute language. (hahah)

how old is no.16?
dianfeng. 17

whn is the last time you spoke to no.13?
yunrou. in school.

who is no.2 favorite band or singer?
peng. tokio hotellllll/ germans with big noses.

would you ever date no. 4?
zhiying. would be incompatible. :(

would you ever date no. 1?
bong. scary girlfriend :| but sure. *wriggles eyebrow VIGOROUSLY*

is no. 19 single?
zhenkai. DONT THINK SO.

would you ever be in a relationship with no.11?
teresa. hahahah yeah sure.

school of no. 3?
laoluo. arrrrrrrrrveeeeeeee.

whr does no. 6 live?
guokai. bukit gombak?

wht is your favourite thing about no.5?
hongzy. that he's just being him!

have you seen no. 2 naked?
peng. Y.E.S.

wht is no.8's nickname ?
laiseng. ONG LAI.

kay i'm done. CHONG LIANGGGG.

2008-06-25T20:36:00.002+08:00

things you plan with much deliberation often go your way.

you might get whatever you want in the end, but you're not the one people seek for anyway.

in a room of methane and carbon monoxide, I think we all would rather smell dung then to kill ourselves with any 5% of CO, hor?

so obviously, without much choices, we'd grant you things to go in your way.

bear in mind tho, you are but the dung smell I/we abhor so much.

;)
ugh.

2008-06-09T21:18:00.005+08:00

I know yall are like dying to get me to post a new entry right. I just saw this 100 qn thing from seow's blog so have fun reading while I have fun entertaining myself. hahah.

1. What's the connection between you and the last person who called you?
joseph and his friend playing a prank on me. ha. ha.

2. Do you ever turn your cell phone off?
nope.

3. What happened at 10am today?
reading.

4. When did you last cry?
few nights ago.

5. What is your favourite thing to eat with peanut butter?
don't eat peanut butter (anymore)! if not, waffle.

6. What do you want in your life right now?
a crush so I'm not so bored. hahahahha.

7. Do you carry an umbrella when it rains, or just put up your hood?
umbrella. no emo hoodies.

8. What's your favourite thing you have on your bed?
my humongous garfield cushion tho it's taking up like 1/3 of my bed space.

9. What bottom are you wearing now?
levis bottom.

10. What's the nicest text in your inbox say?
"you can make out or * any guy anywhere but please do not have sex with him, or call me before you do it" << HAHAHAAH. I can't remember any others.

11. Do you tend to make a relationship complicated?
at times. depends.

12. Are you wearing anything you borrowed from someone?
nope.

13. What was the last movie you caught?
Moulin Rouge.

14. What are you proud of?
lots. significantly, of keeping secrets better these days.

15. What does the oldest text message in your inbox say?
a perverse joke from simon.

16. What was the last song you sang out loud?
lu bian yi ke rong shu xia. haha omg.

17.Do you have any nickname? What are they?
quek more commonly. neh. or jiyuan as called by jazz. shortie.

18. What does your last received text message say? Who was it from?
some text telling me to send him photos of the school. from see.

19. What time did you go to bed last night?
a little after midnight.

2o. Are you currently happy?
yeah apparently. 8*)

21. Who gives you the best advice?
bong hongzy& hoely. more like best at giving assurance when I need it.

22. Do you eat whipped cream straight from the can?
like drinking oil from the bottle right. no.

23. Who did you talk with on phone last night?
nobody.

24. Is anything bugging you right now?
yeah. kinda.

25. Who/What was the last thing/person to make you laugh?
hoely. some stupid thing. hahah.

26. Do you wear toe sock?
hahah no. sounds cool.

27. Who was the last person you missed a call from?
not sure.

28. Have you ever had your heart broken?
yeah. :(

29. What annoys you most in a person?
constant pretense.

3o. Do you have a crush on anyone?
nope. :( boring.

31. Have you ever done cocaine?
no.

32. What is the colour of your room?
white. makes the room look bigger than it really is.

33. Would you kill someone you hate for a billion dollars?
hahaha no.

34. Do you believe in the saying '' talk is cheap ''?
sitting on fence.

35. Who was the last person who lay in your bed?
lover.

36.Who was the last person to hug you?
lover.

37. Did anyone see the last person you kissed?
no.

38. Do you have a life?
If anyone agrees thinking about calories the whole day is considered having a life, then yes. haha.
I'd very much like it if I could play vball with my cousin/choir yr4s again tho. :)

39. Have you ever thought someone died, when they really didnt?
yeah. scary.

4o. What is the reason behind your profile song?
on my blog? garfield's damn cute.

41. Who was the last person you saw in your dream?
not sure.

42. When was the last time you smiled?
this afternoon.

43. Have you changed this year?
yeah I guess.

44. What are you listening to right now?
I'M SEARCHING FOR THUNDERBIRDS ARE THE GO ON MY COM WALAU

45. Are you talking to someone when you are doing this?
yeah.

46. Do you walk with your eyes open or closed?
open. closed when I'm walking on an empty st.

47. Is there a quote you live by?
"night makes people vulnerable" -me. otherwise, not really.

48. Do you want someone you cannot have?
no.

49. Have you ever played an instrument?
yeah.

5o. What was the worst idea you had in a week?
eating 2 dumplings at one go. sigh.

51. What were you doing last night at 11 pm?
chatting online.

52. Are you happy with your love life now?
obsessed with myself manzz.

53. What song describe your love life?
touch my body. HAHAHAH.

54. Does the person know that you like him/her?
yeah I pretty much know I love myself.

55. Who always make you laugh?
a lot. my friends.

56. Do you speak other languages other than English?
diverse(very) mix of dialects and sudden spurts of italian.

57. Are you blond?
no.

58. What is your middle name?
window shopping.

59. What are you doing tomorrow?
meeting cai with see and atw.

6o. What do you think you are like?
short and.. short? hahahah.

61. Who would you choose to die with?
lover. and friends. if they are going to die too, that is.

62. Where have you been today?
tiong and tiong park. (hurrrr)

63. What game do you play often?
freecell, minesweeper, solitaire, pinball sometimes. don't ask me man.

64. Who are you missing right now?
cousins.

65. If you've to choose between friends & love, who will you choose?
f.r.i.e.n.d.s anytime.

66. What are you doing right now?
doing this thing.

67. Which primary school are you from?
Radin Mas Primary.

68. Name 3 colours that you like?
orange, green, grey.

69. What emotion you like to show?
happy.

70. What is life to you?
life is about me meeting and learning about people and doing stuff I like with a whole bunch of restrictions- but it's okay.

71. If you have something troubling you, what would you do ?
think and think and think about it. if not hongzy's a call a away. heh.

72. Who did you last chat in msn today ?
mr ah tahp ji.

73. Who do you admire the most ?
my cousins.

74. Which month are you born in ?
June.

75. How are you feeling right now ?
a little zoned out.

76. What is the time now ?
21:52.

77. Where are you now?
my place?

78. What colour did you used to dye your hair?
au naturel.

79. Why are you doing this test?
wanted something to entertain myself. as well as an attempt to do decent update (ahem).

80. What would you do when you're moody?
eat and eat and eat. (sigh.)
sleep.

81. At which age you wish to get married?
27.

82. Who is more important to you? Boyfriend/girlfriend, friends?
friends.

83. Do you think you have enough confidence ?
probably with some help from self assurance, yes.

84. Who is the person you trust the most ?
peng. hongzy. hoely.

85. If you have only one day left to live, what would you do ?
I'll go learn how to swim then play vball and netball for the rest of the day. I'll make a will and pass my big garfield to peng. then I'll make a big card to teresa and OHs and 4g clique and lezah who's at down under and other fav choir people saying that I love them and for them to love life (hahah) and then another big card to hair-lookalike saying "s'long sucka". and also a note to people I don't like saying why I don't like them.

86. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
eating without getting fat.

87. What is your goal for this year ?
4h2.

88.Do you think that it's stupid to do this 100 question quiz ?
not really. hahah.

89. What feeling do you love most ?
nostalgia. fuzzy wuzzy kind.

90. Do you really think it's global warming now?
yeah. damn the loggers and us.

91. What feeling you hate the most ?
betrayed. :O

92. Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
some.

93. Do you believe in god?
god which? buddha yes. not all the time tho. not the most devoted. no offence.

94. Who cares for you the most?
not sure.

95. What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
emotions and simplicity I guess.

96. What will you bring when you fight ?
armour and weapons. men and horses. um. flags?

97. What have you regretted doing in your whole life?
being a bitch and spoiling a special friendship cos of that.

98. What would you feel if everyone no longer cares for you?
crumbled.

99. What if your stead two-timed you?
cheated.

100 . Love with a guarantee of heartbreak, or never to be loved at all ?
love.

be appeased yall readers!

2008-05-25T20:06:00.001+08:00

Hahha hi.

I wonder why people don't tag on my blog.

...

LOL.

2008-04-06T17:48:00.004+08:00

I cook spaghetti very well.
anybody except smelly boyzz and missiles and kangaroos can come over and request for chef quek to cook you a meal.

This chance is valid only during coming holiday, mondays and tuesdays.
*terms and conditions apply.

*BYOP. (bring your own pasta)

2008-02-17T08:01:00.007+08:00

*prod* hahah. I'm baaaack! but not in action. (hint hint?)

anyway I just had to start my post with this:

and ending off with thissss:

(!!)

:):):):):):):):):)

2008-01-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

great start to 2008. thanks. totally.

2007-12-20T17:12:00.000+08:00

check: have you been very mean to anybody this month?

check check: have you realised how complexed human mind is?

check check check: doing one thing too many times makes you auto-operate.

is it the end of the world yet?

final check: are you still sane?

ha.

2007-12-04T22:00:00.000+08:00

oh-mygod. can you like believe what i saw in friendster.

either sec1girls are going around adding sec3guys or it's the other way round.
nope no problem with that.

but how come all the sec3 guys arrEx tUrniinGx 0uttx liidAttz?

better and more realistic examples would be :hahas or okaes or lols/lolx/lolz
the first example was exaggerated but you get it.

you name it they got it.

this particular good friend of mine is MORPHING INTO ONE OF THAT KIND AND I CAN'T STAND IT.

I mean, if hahas means LOTS OF HAHA, then put hahahahha. what's bloody wrong with that. and what the hell does lolx/lolz means? or worse still l0lx.

okay I know I like "omg" seen as "omgzzzzz" sometimes but like I said it's only.. sometimes. hahahah.

but anyhow, guys, for goodness sake, DON'T ACT TWIT. not even a mild hint of it.
guys with more testerone appeals to me more. mmm.

(what i just said that?)

somehow people moved on to facebook and it seems to be a more.. peaceful place.
*pokepoke*

what I said was what I felt when I saw my best guy friend turn into a gayshiettttxxxzz.
no offense to twiitxs. peace!

*celine brought up a good point.
stop adding random people you don't know.
especially girls fr0m other schools.
I MEAN, YOU GUYS DON'T EVEN KNOW THEM.

HAHA. FUNNY PEOPLE.

2007-11-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

hello everybady.

I just have to repeat my story for the sixth time today.

I had to wake up at 5 to wash a dry fit tee (apparently obs tee again) and ironed it in an attempt to dry it and wore it today cos my laundry basket's piling up but nobody's free enough to dump them into the washing machine.

haha please kill me. newayzzz was bloody cold in the morning like sleeping in tents during obs.

so yeah we went to give out part of the seniors' invitations stuff. met yanneng! and walked around and stuff and bought donuts and got tired out. 2 more days to go! woah.

lots of things to do. haven't done them either. everything's gna be so last minute. rawr got to keep track of dates.

I HAVEN'T STARTED ON MY HOMEWORK! bet some people alr did. (stares)

mm. mmkay. hmmmm.
I don't know what to say.

aye. feel christmas coming already? :D

newayzzz. G DOUBLE OH B J OH B GOODJOB! zhengyang. cos he finally learnt how to send short smses without being long winded.

without having me to delete other msgs to view his.

hahahah. naggy vp. :P

2007-11-12T08:46:00.000+08:00

fuck you faker.

if you're talking about me.

2007-11-06T23:02:00.001+08:00

walaueh I think mr chow is damn cute please.
hahah.

choir was crap.
eeyer. stomachache mah. (excuse excuse)

okay lah. more abs more confidence more rounded voice.

SIAN.

... thanks bye. lol!

*
HI PANG HI WEE!
kayeee im not hiong at all lah.
i listen half and sleep thru the other half. hahaha.

:D i love 2i!
zz random. love you guys. (:

2007-11-02T23:26:00.000+08:00

I made a joke out of horniness during physics lecture.

hard: *pokes*
wet: oh hi there, I'm wet. are you hard?

hahaha. funny right.
but physics concept map still sucks.

2007-11-01T23:51:00.000+08:00

hi, pretty.

er. hello world. cmap sucks.
drives me crazy.
i rather do physics ass 14abcdefghi all the way to z
than to come online and do this thing and spoil my eyes and make them shrink. no ho way.

what else?
lectures are pretty fun. a lot of blind teachers.
nvm. good.

physics is.. understandable now.
no noob teachers what.

okay bye.

2007-10-17T20:59:00.000+08:00

word of the day: ouch.

what's left to say?

2007-10-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

I just did a failure d.i.y. french manicure.

show you all tmr! hahah.

jokers.

aye. my fingers are a disaster.
heh. happy happy days.
germaine made me watch p*rn. ugly dick.

lets have sex!

omg this entry is so wrong.

oh, no, I'm going to have sex. don't worry.
LOL.

2007-10-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

CID SUCKS.

I think mdm mak is nice. kinda. ha.

today sucked. but thank god for you.
(:

to sum up.
today was freaking tiring.
taxing mentally too.

nah. dno.

what if I get retained? oh fuck.

2007-10-08T12:23:00.000+08:00

boreeedddd.

Today was good. at least it was in the morning.
see how it goes later. celebrating my mom's birthday

yeaaaah. feasting out.
what does that mean. bad baaaad sins.

morning was really good.
hahahha.
I got a password and trust to keep.
eh I like it. mm.

not sure if it means to the same to the other person tho.
but it's alright. I'm a happy kid. :D

sorry I like entertaining myself.
I create pretty stories in my head so let me be.

hahahhaah.

yay good I'm getting my optimism back.
but future, or results to be precise, looks bleak.

hmmmm.
I don't look forward to school tomorrow.
:(

oh wow there's cca tomorrow too.
actually I don't enjoy it like I used to two yrs back.
mm. but I've got a responsibility.

hurrrrrrr. school's a turn off.

I have my deepest secret somewhere. but I'm not telling you.
(: have a nice day everybody!

2007-10-05T23:20:00.000+08:00

you know what irritates me most when I'm blog surfing.

that people post songs on their blog and I cannot stand cutting the song off after it starts so I wait till the song ends before I'm satisfied to get onto another webby.

get?

hahhahaha.

like what some people say.
I'm weird. but cute.

*grins*

hahah. no lah. I'm not weird.
it's just that you're not used to it.

8)

2007-10-05T19:17:00.000+08:00

hahah wtf eoy's over HAHAHAHHA
BUT I SCREWED MATH PHYSICS CHEM UP.

eeyer. yucks.

germaine dedicated something for me on 933 lmao I'm gng to specially tune in to 933 and listen out for it. LOL

I think I'm going dumb or something my scalp is bleeding. still bleeding. it's been bleeding since forever lah I think I used too much of my brain that's why there's a overflow of blood up in my head and it's gushing out and gng to wash the loose hair away like hydraulic action and deposit my hair else where like on the floor and I'm going to bald becos the erosion takes place on my scalp.

oh my god.

I hope I didn't screw geog lah huh.

brb-er. LOL.

2007-09-19T23:26:00.000+08:00

IM NICE.

oh. biomed tmr.
chem after.

shaaaats

2007-09-19T20:43:00.001+08:00

waraozz my flu isn't going away and biangbiang called me a bi ti cong today lmao.

er. It's getting irritating cos I use tissues like water even calvin chan tried to teach me how to use a piece of tissue to it's maximum (I did lor)

it's been on since thursday so yeah do your calculation. i use apx 5 packets of tissue paper everyday. i think my nose is rotting.

I'm pissed at many many things but I don't know what so I can't type it down here.

mm and i haven't finished my revision. so dead lah. okay bye

2007-09-03T23:15:00.000+08:00

I don't like seeing people who dislike my friend, add her as a virtual friend online.
then laughing at her behind her back.

don't like the way things work.
think it's rather. unfair.

what comes around goes around.

anyhow, even when those shit happens I love all my friends becos I call you my friend. but dont make things awkward yeah? :)

2007-09-01T18:11:00.001+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY! :]

hahah ytd was performance for teachers day I think we did okay? I thot it wasn't too bad la. lol um. ADELINE YOUR BIRTHDAY LETTER IS STILL WITH ME!

yeah. saw seniors, hugged, pulled straps, went rmps.
mmmmmm.

rmps means a lot.
not the school part but the friends part.

i love all my friends!

oh. I finally passed joseph his duck!

2007-08-26T21:20:00.000+08:00

just read someone's blog.

you-

it's not once in how many years.
it's just that you nv realised this habit.

and you nv realised I was always the one whom you'd arrow at.
I've been thru that so many times that I don't bother about it anymore.

I'm having a bitch fit.

oh. and I think it's good to experience all emotions.
enrichment for yourself. no pt hiding.

but, friends anyway.

2007-08-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

I don't know why people can't move on.

Don't whine. Don't think.

Do what you deemed fit and continue walking on without turning back to see what you could have done in the first place.

cus there's no point.

why're you scared? why're you hesitating to take the first step? Why have you returned everything you learnt from other ways?

Dont look back until you are done with everything.
it's more rewarding this way.

actually. I'm afraid of what I'm about to face too.
but still-

2007-08-19T18:31:00.000+08:00

oh hi my creditor from werun.blogspot just made me blog about 6weird facts about myself.

so, with some help from a certain vanderstraaten who calls me weirdo I um. present to you weird facts about myself.

1. I have weird coloured underwears. ...
2. I have a fetish for burping
3. I drink ice lemon tea without ice
4. I like my jnr's chubby cheeks
5. I cannot remove my facial fats
6. I play pretend in the bathroom. hahah

I don't have weird coloured underwears! Zz

OH. CAN I ADD A 7?

7. I got caught for long nails even tho my nails didnt exceed my fingertips.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ADELINIMARIOSITIK.

2007-08-14T21:55:00.000+08:00

guess what.

I need to cut my hair lah!! it's turning into a bush.

and my fringe!!! it's. don't know. haha

aiya nice friends out there, persuade me to get my haircut and stop fretting over eoys.

anyway, it's teresa's birthday tomorrow but I don't know if she'll see this but still-

Happy birthday!

anyhow, anyway, august people please wait till um. a later date to get your presents. hahah I'm bored and I'm supposed to study/sleep. so, bye.

I think I'm going to sleep. Zz

2007-08-12T20:06:00.000+08:00

I AM SO GROSSED OUT BY FAKE CHONG PANG.

>P BLEARGH

2007-08-02T20:10:00.000+08:00

I'm robbed of rest and I can only blame it on my plain laziness for the first 6months of this year.

BOO:(

school's great. (internal justification.)
I shall rejoice for there's pe tmr and we can play floorball and er. I get to see my friends and next week is national day wooooo we are singapore we are singapore there are five stars arisinggggggg

I wish everybody was happy again my mom's turning into a bigass bitch.

math is a lovely subject. :)

I wanted to blog about something but I forgot what. my inspiration came during el lesson cos it was equally inspiring. I think Jtan rocks (!!)

my foot.

lmao yeah. but anyhow I rmb I wanted to blog about something I felt very strongly about. anyway, goodluck to bong pang jonneh and zhihui in india I hope they are going to buy indian bangles for me. the ones on my bag is #$%$^

:D

2007-07-30T00:11:00.000+08:00

Lets just say that everybody has their own stress from their own way of life.

like, just afflicted from what they do and how they react to stuff.

that's so dumb. we should standardise stress so that people dont overuse that word. and so that they dont use stress as an excuse to stop at where they are.

yeaaaaaaaah man.

Im feeling sad and angry at no apparent reason :(

MY JOY IN LIFE IS TO DRAW ON ZHANGYU!

!!!! HAHAHAH.

(i wished you were here with me)

2007-07-21T13:46:00.001+08:00

Dagama:

Stanley, xueqiang, liting, zhiying, jingyuan, farah
victor. xiuhan, jiaxu, huipeng
CHU AI~ (instructor:D), weiwei, wenyi, qiyuan, shermian.

<3 !!

Hey everybady I survived OBS. I guess I really enjoyed it despite all the cut-outs from civilisation and the nightly sleeping with insects experiences.

but anyway, OBS is more than that and it really is up to everybody to feel it for yourselves.

I could distinctly see people changing in the whole course of this 5days, and how we can influence one another. reflecting every night and talking about what happened in the day leaves us thinking and wanting to contribute more to our watch.

cool

I'm happy for all of us that we all brought home something that we gained from this camp. It's not a playplay kind of camp but it's very refreshing for the soul uh.

5dats away from civilisation might not sound very inviting but as long as you benefited from it there'll be a paradigm shift for sure.

the same sun that melts the wax toughens the ground.

:D

I'll grow up more and learn to accept any challenges that come in my way becos I can do it.
I'll be like a eraser and erase off other's wrongdoing and forgive.
I'll not look behind and regret, neither will I look into tomorrow and hesitate; I'll do my best today and not waste my time away.

finally, I'll be thankful of the water resources we have.

hahah.

2007-07-15T19:57:00.000+08:00

edit{
eh I'm cool and stuff I won't jump man. chicken hearted. hahah I treasure my life more than everybady else kay.
anyw I'm bringing my mom's hush puppy bag and track pants to obs leh. don't condemn me kay. hahah shats.

/edit

sometimes I look at people who claims that they are suffering under immense stress, I wondered if I'd be the first among them to jump.

It'd have been much easier without him in my life. It's like, this had been happening throughout my entire life.

I've respected my dad all my life and I hope I still do.

2007-07-14T23:30:00.000+08:00

EH FUCK BEING MY DAD DOESNT GIVE YOU THE RIGHT TO PUNCH ME RIGHT.

YOU DONT EVEN DESERVE TO BE A DAD.

2007-07-14T20:17:00.001+08:00

WHATEVER.

2007-07-01T12:18:00.001+08:00

mm love you all.

to those who cared and esp to the one who always does stupid things together with me.

I'll pick up from where I stopped.

and same to my lovely junior yujun: I'm just a phone call away if you wanna.

2007-06-28T21:58:00.000+08:00

I feel the angst these days. makes me pissed a hell lot.

pray it be over soon

2007-06-23T01:14:00.000+08:00

TOP ON THE LIST.

MAKE MY IC BEFORE JUNE ENDS.

2007-06-22T20:47:00.000+08:00

shat man I'm tired.

what's so shitty about it I don't know. oh shat I'm talking nonsense and it makes no sense, that's why its non-sense. geddit?

okay.

I've got some things to do so. Here's my self reminder you can skip this bit
-buy mahjong paper
-do ss
-there's piano tmr
-wth there's piano tmr
-shat i'm sick of piano
-and memo speech day chinese song. mm

(WAHLAO IM REALLY SICK OF PIANO)

kay, I like the chinese song ley!:D mm ms tham got impatient w us cus the chinese song wasn't memorised. zz but she gave us many many chances to do it over again

I love her! for being such a wonderful conductor :]]]]

mmmm. bye world!
and hello to everybaaaady on my tagb!

um, and im too lazy to edit the links.

2007-06-21T14:12:00.000+08:00

hi world, there are many people out there pressurizing me to update. so now I'm updating for a particular person cos im NICE

mm, I need to start on lky project but everytime i look at his face on google page i feel so TURNED OFF that i don't want to continue with it anymore.

how ah?

shats.

actually, Ive got a lot to update on. like, more myheritage (hair ruh tige) results. but im too lazy to shift my ass. so-

anymore suggestions?

no right. im lazy too.
so direction to further entertainment, http://bohemian-native.blogspot.com/

have fun

oh, btw. im blowing the chewing gums yanpeng brought over from kl. see the irony? cool.

2007-06-15T21:58:00.001+08:00

hahah. I'm too lazy and tired to talk about prac this morning. so actually I'm here to disturb adeline the princess cos I tinky winky she'll read this.

HIGHER VOICES POWER!

.. okay v ugly. but heck

HIGHER VOICES POWER!:D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YITATATATATA!

2007-06-14T13:50:00.000+08:00

I need sleep.

but I can't cos I gta go to ntu for some sai thing and totally lag there until we do something.

.. riiight. so I'm like racing against time and trying to find out what buses there are at tiong. and I got a helpful joseph ng to help me.

heeeeey. I miss 2i, but I missed - more cos I didn't get to talk to him a lot. what's wrong with people. :(

6a chalet was okay, and things didn't change much. which was good. ha

I miss the whole world man. please come back to me soon

2007-06-10T13:58:00.001+08:00

hahaha I need to blog about this!

I tried myheritage just now (and my user is pokefatmon hahahhaha).

so, I mostly looked like stephen chow and yp, elton john.

riiiiiiiight

I tried sizheng and he looked like Jay Hernandaz
...

zhenkai looked like andy lau (LOL), zhangziyi ._.

tampon looked like saiful apek

and saddam hussein

adaline looked like chad michael murray, tom cruise, daniel radcliffe, and VAMPIRE.

eunice looked like anita mui

yifan looked like stephen chow ._. and dougie poynter. hahah but somebody told me dougie poynter is hawt! >:D

weikai looks like ella, fann wong, ayumi hamasaki, kyoko fukada. LOL WEIKAI DAMN PRETTY

chineh looked like mark bautista, emily browning, sam cooke, yadayada, STEPHEN CHOW ._.

yita looked like jacky cheung, and a lot of other korean artiste

yinghin looked like YAOMING!

then, gh3y looked like vivian tsu, JOHN WOO (wth exact name), megawati sukarnoputri, BEYONCE KNOWLES, queen latifah, GONG LI, markbautista, HUJINTAO.

basically he just looks like thai, women, and ugly men.

OMG WTH TANYUJUN WHAT'S WRONG WITH YOUR FACE?

and, zhiying looks like john woo too.

woots

sexaye. :)

2007-06-06T09:24:00.001+08:00

I feel like eating fried beehoon now. mmmm

oo and I recieved a belated present ytd.
it's helium-y :D
like what I asked for from chin.

YAY I love the choir fav people :)
(adeline it's a very gh3y name heh)

yeaaah.
I think ndp songs are zz
hahahahhaah high c is damn coolioz

then there are some disputes. >:/
ohkay man. hope we can settle them quickly luh
disputes rake up many bad memories

heh and bong welcome back. I didnt even know you were back >P

ae I finished updating. dianfeng can pass me my present alr?

2007-06-01T16:35:00.000+08:00

helloo. happy birdday to me! :)

heh. I don't think I reminded a lot of people hur. maybe some here and there

Eh, good if you remember. if you dont I don't really care.

right.
buneh was the first to msg.
bong called from uk becos I replied her at 4.

oo I nearly cried at 4am when I checked my phone.

2007-05-31T21:40:00.000+08:00

I'm gna give you a heart attack.

hahhaha.
byebye I don't know what to say.

oo guess the song that has the line on top.
heh.

2007-05-16T20:51:00.000+08:00

:(

I don't know what's wrong with the system but I don't like the one running everything.

Basically, I just think that she's crap.

Thanks so much for the competition you invite from outside.
I appreciate your every effort to put us down and attempts to make us work harder. but sorry it doesn't work that way.

Thank you so much man.

2007-05-10T20:43:00.000+08:00

YAY TMR'S FRIDAY AND AFTER THAT ITS PLAY!

hahhahaaaaaaaaaaa

yeah today we went to some newater thing at bedok and stuff. I won a hawt pink waterbottie 8)

HOT OKAY. HAHA

so after everything we went back to school for tetanus jab (or smthg) for obs shit. zz yeah

I SHRANK BY ONE CM #$%#$^
MEANS A LOT OHKAY.

HAAAAA OHKAY BYEBYE
mm my midyrs are screwed.

2007-05-08T17:08:00.000+08:00

I miss sazwan.

:(

I dreamt of him some time ago during exam period.
wonder how he's doing now.

2007-05-03T17:53:00.000+08:00

don't know why I even bother trying.

yeah.
im on a binge :O
I like eating stress away

uh oh.
I swear I'm going to fast and run after exams.
but right now I need energy.:D haha.

ha bye. back to phy
wait, I haven't even started.
>:\

2007-04-25T21:26:00.000+08:00

yeah. I'm very hurt.

but it's okay.

2007-04-21T19:33:00.000+08:00

am so infuriated.
unjust.

when others belittle your effort.

yeaaaah.
you wna know how the cake taste, you have to try it yourself. you wna know how hard/easy our pieces are, you sing it.

then you'll see how.
only then, can you judge.

BLEARGH

but in anyways, would you question the international judges?

2007-04-19T16:58:00.000+08:00

...

poisoned by a stupid bug says:
last time hor
poisoned by a stupid bug says:
i read her name
poisoned by a stupid bug says:
mak lai kuen
poisoned by a stupid bug says:
i read like ma3 lai2 queen

HAHAHAH.
this is brought to you by octupus zhang.

funnaye.
we were both on mc today.

and we are both crazeh cos we realise there's no geog tmr so we dont have to take the geog test tmr.:D haha.

my fever is getting worse I think I need to sleep. oh, the doc said my throat is red. that's bad right.

maybe cos I'm too hawt.

2007-04-18T20:39:00.000+08:00

RVCHORALE APRIL 17TH 2007

GOLD WITH HONOURS.

:D

haha, yeah. I love the choir. and the way we worked together all this while for GWH. :D])>

(haha yah. hopefully sops can continue the legacy leh! >:/)
btw I think ms tham is the best conductor on adfhskdhfkhskdhf planet lah! I never felt so happaye and excited on stage yesterday. heh! I LOVE THE WAY SHE CONDUCTS:D

HEH.

vanilla essence. v-V

k. anyw I'm like down with fever and flu (WHY AM I SO HYPER NOW HAHA) and my phone decided to die on me. so I don't think I can survive without my phone tmr if I'm staying home.

or if I decided to go sch w my fever I'm going to get killed by llm cos we haven't done our cid file. yeahyeahyeah I don't know if it's tmr. but still. RAWR

I NEED TO HEAL MY BODY LAH. it's damn hawt now woo.

..

I think the heat comes from me. lol

2007-04-15T22:38:00.000+08:00

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love

I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there ?
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not just somebody just to get me through the night ?
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

2007-04-14T17:44:00.000+08:00

TODAY WAS WOO! :D

I love everybody putting in their best. feels so good :)
We will blow the judges off their feet on tuesday! YEAH

yeaaaaaaaaah.
I don't get it why g.a.s.i.

mm. guess the words. haha

2007-04-13T21:15:00.000+08:00

I'm okay. not emo

ha. today was good cos everything was going smoothly until after 245.

then yeah. after everything I was tired and all. yeaaah. I'm v guilty for not singing when my section was practising by the piano.
yeah. I hope everything goes on well tmr.

and some people don't realise it's syf on tuesday judging from how distracted they were during today's practice la. okay, syf's on tuesday.

rvchorale gogogo!

anyw, I'd want a reply. I think you misinterpreted. okay wdv
like, the passing rain.

2007-04-11T22:29:00.000+08:00

I'm doing my.. cid project. ppt. stuff

everything seems so. cramped together. and it doesn't help a bit that my parents are constantly fighting and screaming at each other.

It just hurts so much that we are struggling within ourselves I don't feel like coming home anymore. Now I just stay in the room, using the com or sleeping.

I don't want interaction. It just worsen things. and I don't wanna take sides. I don't like to see my mom sad. I hate my dad. I hate my mom too. who do I like?

In a way or another, I don't feel the connection in this family anymore. It's like the short story in the english compre we just did. Just that I'm on my own.

It's so easy to act. but you can nv hide everything.

2007-04-11T19:44:00.000+08:00

>:/ >:( :(.

rawr so frustrated.

2007-04-07T20:45:00.000+08:00

:) :] :/ :x >:/

yep.

2007-04-06T13:57:00.001+08:00

sucker.

>do what you mean.

2007-04-04T21:19:00.000+08:00

YAY BEFORE I START, CO GOLD W HONOURS! :]

aahahaha so happy.
pressure's up.
gwh too k rvc! :]]]

I just did a personality test and -

You are CRAZY You belong in an institution... Talk to your doctor about this. Get some friends... Well let's talk about your personality You are well liked, you are rarely late. You like icecream, And you really enjoy a good pair of slacks. Years later from now a doctor will tell you, that you have an I.Q. of 48 which some people may call mentally retarded. :D

>:/
bong, I'm rarely late leh.
so true! I'm damn punctual lor.

2007-04-03T21:15:00.000+08:00

Sorry ah, how good is your A?

I love my school. plus, my genius and allrounder friend.

Totally dude.

2007-04-01T13:14:00.000+08:00

Tday's screwed man. it's an april without fools >:/ wassup man!

um not to forget I haven't touched my homework.
aw I like I'm yours by jason marz.

rah I'm so fuckedup(wdv I can't find a better word) I spelled my name as qiyaun for 4consecutive times.

mind you I woke up feeling happy and high until I realised nobody's in the mood for prank calls. >:/ shoot those homework yo.

ah I think it's just a reason to be angry. I'm waiting for smthg :/ and I hate jianbao. send me some newspapers I'm sweating all over looking for them. RAWR

2007-03-30T20:27:00.000+08:00

:The joke, if it was, wasn't very funny ah.

ntu was :/ :\ : caiyy took plates for me. haha. so honoured:D

a, b, seeeee. haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STANLEY! <3!
YAY!:D:D

so hum. I swear t sing you birthday song in public someday :D

btw. somebody who cant keep secrets will nv be told another.

2007-03-29T20:33:00.000+08:00

I love epitaxy-! and I hate xhtml. (choir blog's still undone btw shitxz)

I totally dislike people who lie so you and you, watch it.

anyw tday is thursday. haha!

2007-03-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

I didn't have to know you, right?

2007-03-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

HAHA YAY! I CAN VIEW MY BLOG.:D

I hope blogger can remain um. CONSISTENT.:D haha.
consistency.

anyw I was wandering around friendster and I decided I want:

FAT-LESS FACE (WTH @$^#%$)
MOLE-LESS FACE
BIGGER TEETH
BIGGER LIPS

HAHAHA. so random right! but I want to be pretty! hahahah.

2007-03-27T21:11:00.000+08:00

I've got nthg t do so I rewrote my profile and uh.

I STILL CAN'T VIEW MY BLOG. HAHA
WHATS WRONG WITH BLOGGER!

2007-03-19T23:32:00.000+08:00

HILY.

2007-03-18T22:11:00.000+08:00

I've come to terms w -, and it took me a long time.

if yadayada(not related t above) happens, I'm preparing myself for this setback.

If it doesn't happens, I'll learn not to falter in times of crisis.
If it happens.. I'm going to do things step by step and be the lousiest of the lot and learn to be more zai. okay byebye I'm having a very sore throat and a splitting headache. cos I'm feeling very emo. I think.

2007-03-10T19:53:00.000+08:00

aiya bloody shit my entries are damn shit and sai and everything from your ass lah but I can't help it

how can you help it if you are bloody inconsistent? how can you help it that you breakdown suddenly you don't even know it? how can you help it that you turn into a bundle of nerves when it comes to your turn to perform?

how can you help it that you bloody forgot how enjoyable it was to sing in the past?

it's only in a moment that everyone wants to be the best and it makes you so stressed that you cannot continue becos you feel damn inferior.

I wna move on man. but I'm so drained of energy.

2007-03-07T22:41:00.000+08:00

crap I don't think I can like perform anymore or whatever shit cos my average is like. 59.6. and we nd to get like 66%.

whats the point lah whats the point!!! what's the bloody point of trying so hard and going mad over auditions when my results is like. kns.

yayayayayayyayayayayay go laugh lah go laugh at this bloody 59.6 i know the world got like higher than me but what shit. i don't really give a hoot lah i only care whether i can like perform if i cant even get 66% i dont even have to think about auditions lah mf.

YA GO LAUGH LA. ACE MUGGERS. i cant stand the world and this bloody human nature rule you wna compare go pick someone of your size lah. rah!

2007-02-26T02:33:00.000+08:00

this was boozy:

coffee & toast please :] says:
thn take some book and write noes
coffee & toast please :] says:
notes8
coffee & toast please :] says:
aaaahh.
coffee & toast please :] says:
my fingers rlly numb liao
coffee & toast please :] says:
thn pen uncapped
coffee & toast please :] says:
write ahlfway
coffee & toast please :] says:
argh

and this was me:

go arabic ホイ ! says:
ya i was blog surfing then i quick;y open the file
go arabic ホイ ! says:
that file
go arabic ホイ ! says:
that what file?
go arabic ホイ ! says:
shit i mental block
go arabic ホイ ! says:
CHEM

time: 2.33

z.

2007-02-25T21:50:00.000+08:00

anyw I'm like blogging twice cos I suddenly remembered what I was so pissed about.

don't question my integrity cos I don't lie and I don't like lying so when I say my throat's sore or WHAT SHIT please trust me la right.

am I always sick? no right. it just happenes that you have the image of me sick stuck in your head.

so next time, qiyuan= sick everytime. okay? good enuf for you right?

okay I'm done w my rants.

2007-02-25T20:33:00.000+08:00

cny cookies spoil my everyday please I'm close to unspeakable range z

I think thr's 2345834795263457 litres of phlegm in my throat and all ZZZZZZ and some wear and tear hre and thr my throat feels like it's about to burstttttt

anyw I wrote a letter for hahashang and it's made up of bullshit. along w some boredom and sianess.

I'm so annoyed with myself to still have the decency to blog and chit chat and binge whn I still have tons of work waiting

eh who create msn one?!?!!?

shit man I don't understand why my sister was still playing with her pokemon crater when her exams are just next wk. why ah!!!!

she's learning words like spick and span, hari raya puasa. I just heard my dad testing her on spelling. why ah!!!!! why the contrast!!!

...

why do the sky and the ocean, join to form a line?

from biang. so intriguing hor? guess the subject it's related to.

GLORIOUS MATH!:D -runs away from neh's chopper.

haha bye. I'm back to phy.. and chem.. and geog.. ZZZZZZZZ

2007-02-22T21:51:00.000+08:00

thr's like things that I want to say but it'll take forever.

then thr are things I want to finish up but I'm procrastinating.

finally thr are things I want to clarify but I don't dare, so I just forget about them.

thr are people ignoring me and I don't know why but I don't really care cos thr are others who truly care. and perhaps they didn't do that on purpose. I hate that nvrtheless

thr are people I want to turn away from but I'm tryng to be a good person so I just put up an act.

thr are people who disgust me but I just keep gossiping about them so I'm just equally as asshole.

thr are people who I don't care about. but I simply need to cos. wdv

thr are people who made me laugh and always make my day

thr are people whom I love and think for and I like to see them happy.

then again everybody is feeling so down and all.. is it the homework load, the stress, or is it becos of the sch fengshui?

qing ni men dou kuai le!

back to my point, I have lots of stuff undone. and I don't really feel like completing them. I'd have fallen back to emo pit if not for the wonderful people with me :] to bong for tickling and kachiaoing me and to boozy for being so much like me. haha for talking to me abt stuff

haha dno why I'm lagging arnd like this but I feel like typing this out so haha. thankyou loves dont call me mushy can.:D

I think I'd rather not know.

2007-02-21T19:42:00.000+08:00

ae yo.

i'm not v highhhhhh but i'm not feeling down also la. i'm just doing some thinking.

anyw thr's um. tests tmr. i haven't been listng in class so bye hahaha.

[][][]. hahhaha

2007-02-17T09:35:00.000+08:00

zz I can't see my blog on th web lol. beta sucks manz yo

haha.
ytd was th eve of the cny eve :D I pangsehed th pri sch people and went w *ade's* fav choir people! lol bah I wanted t join them aft they finished watching movie but due t unforeseen circumstances er. yeahhh that's a different story. haha

anyw I was hunting for clothes and some sweet seniors/alumi (old liao lor cheeeken *HAH//*) suggested kiddy palace.

then I kept getting suaned after that! ._.

haha:D

anyhow I still love them cos. I love them! haha

-

2007-02-14T21:30:00.000+08:00

Hello peapal happy v day! :]

ae t all that I gave presents to i love evrybdy k even tho th presents are v cheapo and are from ntuc except for some and er. ya lah it's th thot that counts!

and happy bday t sucker who spoilt my day aft that lah. nb

ae if you are like displeased at me for whtvr shit reasons you have i know and i can tell, and most of all i read your blog lah. being quiet about it doesn't mean that i don't know whats gng on in your mind.

so, please sort out what you are unhappy about and feel guilty becos it's v childish. thankyou ah

*
but even whn you are arnd your replies disappoint me th most. its as tho i can't lean on anyone but myself. cos evrybdy's not thr. neither are you CHEEEEE -

damnit I used t hate that wrd.

2007-02-11T11:52:00.000+08:00

I love

R

V

CHORALE!

:D

ae I hope I won't screw again man.
or maybe I was born on the day of screwdriver zz

2007-02-04T09:47:00.000+08:00

I don't need to report again what I'm doing becos I've told you. I don't need you to punish me becos I'm not in the wrong to explain myself. I don't even need you to forgive me becos I WASN'T EVEN IN THE WRONG.

lastly, I don't need to be your punchbag literally becos I have human rights.

fuck you if you think dads have the rights to hit their child.
seriously I can live without you. perhaps even better.

FUCK LAH

2007-01-31T21:27:00.000+08:00

edit{
hello world I'm blogging again on stupid stuff becos I feel so infuriated by evrythg.

besides my height the next thing on my list that irritates me most is useless stuff like SEL. like what peng said, rv shoves us with all these things and take up our time to sleep and for your information you burn fats and bones grow WHEN YOU SLEEP so by not sleeping I cannot burn fats even tho doing hmk does but im not enjoying the whole process.

woh my longest sentence this year is dedicated to rv.

take sel for example lah. we are required to FILL in the blocks of space and give examples for what we think of ourselves. so here I am sitting by the table for half an hour trying to dig smthg from my memory.

I mean yeah sel is helpful and we like to do stuff like this cos we always do fun quizes on ourselves (narcissist wdvr) but write it down? EH HELLO I GOT NO TIME LAH! I NEED TO GROW LEH.

yea it's for knowing outselves better and tracing our growth during all these days but wth! it's so ridiculous pening it down lah. so in conclusion i dislike SEL and it's interrupting my growing period.

if any tcher wants to catch me for like. insulting sel's self esteem(haha) or what shit put in mind that I only needed a place to rant lar right. even tchers don't like hmk right.

RAH!

{/edit

ae all you bangsai don't msg me cos my hp is spoiled lah. tmd

..
tmd I - my mom lar I waited for 2 years for something to go wrong in my hp now it happened I don't get my new phone. wth

TMD!

aiya. then again I got other stuff to worry about. whats the big deal of a hp now?

2007-01-28T12:43:00.000+08:00

my hp is screwed lah don't msg me k.

so dumb lah please my dad opened up the interior of the hp and tried to take my sim card out but he bent it lah. wth!

oh there's the dance floor tonight I wna watch lol. I'm not gh3y la. and that show isn't gh3y.:D

2007-01-27T16:15:00.000+08:00

HAHA I'M BACK TO NEOPETS!

cos I don't feel like touching my hmk and um. I just revised the scores. lol so hardworking :D haaa I hope more of this boost confidence woo

anyw my name is fishball quek and my pet is called fbq LOL. so dumb lah please they require you to enter your birthday evrytime you enter neopets so I had to recreate my acc cos I forgot what my birthdate is lol.

haiya I miss my old pet lah :D

2007-01-25T20:27:00.000+08:00

haiya, what do you want me to do?
:(

hai. when you are the one there to talk to others, who is there to talk to you?

llm brightened my day today (boo don't kill me) while mr oh did the opposite la. small actions always counts.. they make big difference.

2007-01-23T20:11:00.000+08:00

zz wth I went youtube and tried watching sadam's hang but I didn't dare to watch it. heh

so yea yita and I ran 7rounds = 400 times 7 = 2.8 today. but I thot it was 6rounds ley lol. running helps in bowel movements.. -_-

so after gekking my sai for one whole day I totally don't dare to sing cos I feel my sai moving when I use my abs or wdvr lol.

my thumbdrive always has this popup asking me to install wdvr wdvr ley. shangzhi is dying teaching me what I should do hahahahha ey yea. If this is of any entertainment then er. be happy la. :P

2007-01-21T11:37:00.000+08:00

itunes had been trying to update my ipod since aeons ago.. and it's still not done. wth

I'm so turned off by the amount of homework lar. and my geog grp is not online.. eh hello this is my year 3 ah? -_-

heh. but thank goodness for peng and zinc ;] and _

EH MY ITUNES HANGED
OKAY I BLOODY GOT NO MOOD TO UPDATE ALR
WTH

2007-01-19T22:40:00.000+08:00

I need to rant.

why do people gossip so much?
HELLO MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS LAR

BANGSAI.

I miss what that was before.
are you reading this?

2007-01-13T20:01:00.000+08:00

my body is aching like lemons

anyw. since you've been thru so much I wish you finally feel like how I felt when I A. the only difference is that you have B with you still and as your C. The defination of D hasn't changed much for me and I hope that E would realise that it's much more deep than what you percieve it as.

things are as it is now and I feel v F that G but it's over and maybe it's meant to be. anyw I was thinking, H.

it was I but people learn from mistakes.

have you learnt that friends need trust and chance? and figured that some things have to be said to be solved? I feel very unjust. even tho I'm obviously in the wrong, but nobody's right :[ right? I should be moving on with life D: scars don't heal
woh.

yeah. those are my thots since v long and now I've taken it off my chest. even if these are very outdated. so don't feel offended huh.

anyw I'm gng swimming with zinc tmr! :]

2007-01-11T21:07:00.000+08:00

HELLO MY NEW LOVE IS DESMOND LIM!!!

OMGZZZ HE ROCKS LAH. :D

_ is scaring me.
..

okay prac tmr. yay smthg to look forward to. finally :DD *Qiyuan*

2007-01-07T12:53:00.000+08:00

I went for massage yesterday..

and it wasn't even on purpose.. ! I was waiting for my sis then I got dragged in for massage too.

okay I thot it shldn't be v pain and stuff cos I'm healthy.

BUT IT TURNED OUT TO BE THE WORLD'S MOST UNBEARABLE PAIN LAH PLEASE!!!! OMGZZZ

anyw this person was on some makeup course and she needed any random model for her case study stuff lah. so she wonderfully asked me and my equally wonderful mom agreed.

!!!

.. anyw I think she might fail her case study thing. lol anyw I can't upload the pics so if I happen to be appearing online then ask me I might show you

LOL okay so aft my sis had her wonderful massage and I had my wonderful makeup session we headed to celebrate her birdday lol.

it's this buddhist thingy haha! so the cake was vegetarian (eh sounds wrong lah what is it supposed to be?) and everybody was damn small, in the sense skinny.

except for one or two lah.

but everybody was pretty. my mom said that's cos they are VEGETARIAN.

#$@%#$#$@%#$(!

haha wth manz. I can't go vegetarian for the sake of beauty lah I might just die or something.

haha wdvr lah. I got dragged to join the guitar club or something which I wasn't very willing but since I'm in it I'm going to drag pple to join also!

heh come ask me or I'll go ask you k. it's not some religious thing but I think at some pt of time they'll go explaining these stuff lah. it's quite interesting anyw.

haha join me laaaaaa :D

2007-01-01T15:09:00.000+08:00

Hello happy new year! :]

it's a happy year for some and otherwise for others :[ okie.

zy is you are reading this saya suka awak!

ZY IS NOT ZHENGYANG BTW OMGZZ.

heh, went countdown with zhenkai df mary the laoniu and yujun the nen cao. new experience lol. the deprived is no longer deprived wahahahha

since it's another new year I have a new set of resolution! muahaha

...

okay I just saw celine's nick.

new year resolutions nvr work for me too. LOL